Inside Happiness

 

I always wanted the life outside, experiencing the heart-felt laughter at silly antics, reading stories, making friends, walking to the land, feel the fresh air and so many things that I didn’t experience yet. Because my body was soft with a tiny head matted with sheen of hair. My tiny body with a tiny heart that pulsated in time. My bone and muscles wasn’t strong enough to support and to protect me outside, because my body wasn’t fully developed yet. I always active, I always move my hand to touch my skin, lips and cheeks because I am curious what I am look like. This is my fingers and ohh! … Here’s my thumb which I sucked when I am afraid.  Only his voice makes me calm and feels safety.

At weekends he loves to play and talk with me the whole day. He always taught me good moral values, because he doesn’t want me to see someday a child as a burden than a joy. And he explained that he don’t want spoiling me by buying luxury things that I wanted someday. And every night, he tells a lot of stories to me like the Rabbit’s Eyes, The Great White Bear and the Trolls and In Search Of a Baby. I have a plenty laughed, excitement and moral lesson learned when he tells an every single story and also his experiences every day. He wants me to have a preview outside life’s experiences, dilemmas and hardships. Because he believes that stories can educate me, and inspire me, to a build rapport. He is a funny, cool, adventurous and smart human being. That’s why I love him so much.

Every morning, he is exceptionally watchful with respect to what I eat. He generally demands me to eat a healthy fruits and vegetables, which are rich in vitamins and minerals in order to grow my body healthy and strong. He extremely loves me. I generally appreciate investing energy with him and learn new things with him. He is the most precious gift of God to me.He wants me to become a good human being like him. That is why he always teaches me to differentiate between what is right and wrong.

When I am ready to face the world outside, I want him to become my best friend too, that I can discuss everything with him without any doubt. Things that I fail, things that I achieve. I want it to easily discuss to him. He is a kindest man, he understands anyone, he never gives up, he always concerned to my future, he always give time and extensively effort to express his responsibility even though how tough it is, he’s always at our side no matter what happen, and he doesn’t care how much he spends on me but all cares is me, being happy inside.

I thank God for every day for giving me such a loving and caring father.  Even though I am not born in the world that I wanted, and even though I can’t see him, touch him, making conversation to him, bonding with him and so much things. I am thankful and bless that I met him. I’m going to miss everything about you father. I love you.

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Garden of Time and Space

We all know that a flower garden is where flowers are grown for decorative purposes. What if the flower garden , turns to a garden of time and space, when you can travel back to your past and you can journey your future. Would you able to change your destiny? or Change the others destiny ? Are you ready to sacrifice your present to change your past ?Are you willing to change the journey of  the world or your life?

 

 

Nighttime Visitor

 

It was 12:00 ante meridiem of midnight , when I was still  continuing my extensive review for the final examination, because as a honor student I want to proliferate my rank in the class. So, that time I perceive that my mind was very weary cause of overload information that I read, memorized and analyzed. I checked the time, it was 3:00 am, the time that some people considered that it is the spirit’s time to communicate with us, the other think it’s a devil’s speck or mark . Some even think that when you wake up at this time, someone is watching you. For me it doesn’t matter , it’s just a time.

Before I sleep I always  turn off the light in my room,and I feel, something bizarre that time, and I decided to  ignore it.                                                                                                                When I fell asleep…..

I’m walking  to the unfamiliar street and I saw my cousin playing with unknown man , the man was tall and blurred face and he garb a black cloak , he wave his hand to me and I say “Hi” and then, there’s a weird but a adorable child girl who hold my right hand and she’s crying , I ask her what happen but she didn’t answered to my question. I look back to the tall man who wear a black cloak but he’s gone speedily including my cousin and I feel seriously terrified, and then, when I’m going to entertain the adorable child girl,I was fucking shock because her face was strangely change like a murdered child.Her eyes was blank same with her mouth and her tears turns to blood, her finger nails was bleeding same with his head and she shriek and said (while crying)”I need help!

Because of my trepidation , I left the girl and I run rapidly away from her, but it’s hard to me to run, I feel heavy and it’s like that the gravity diminish. And I try to run the fast that I can, in order to escape from the little girl .                                                                                                          I slowly stop running ,when I saw our house between in the two aged and forsaken houses . I wondered why our house is in there and I think there’s something wrong that’s happening that time . Because I’m curious , I sedate entering to our house but when I look to the window, I saw a unfamiliar old woman that I ‘ve never seen before, wearing a weird wedding gown , I didn’t see her face because she’s suddenly disappeared and that’s definitely unnatural.My body full of  nervous ,when I’m looking around inside the house. house that the ambiance I’ve never perceive. I feel it’s not our home  and I feel there’s something living there before us.

And afterwards, I hear something whispering in the kitchen, and when I arrive, I scared   because there’s a hole that connected to the two aged abandoned house, and accidentally I saw a old woman who wearing a black dress and veil when I called her , she is slowly turning her face to me and I saw her eyes was dark and blank same with her mouth she look like a nun . I attempted to run but I can’t move because of my fear. She is walking toward to me and trying to take me , I scream as loud as I can, but there’s no voices coming out. I try it again even though it’s not working , her face was very close to me and then she open her mouth and scream .

When my uncle enter to my room and he want to check me , he unexpectedly saw a black cloak shadow beside in my bed and staring at me. and suddenly he heard that I’m growling and crying, he quickly woke up me ,and he slap my face three times to just woke up. When I wake up , in just a second I realized that it just a bad dream and then I cried , because I thought it was all true . My uncle advice to me to pray sincerely before I go to sleep again .

Since I experienced that fucking nightmare, I’m always afraid to sleep. Every time I close my eyes, I  always remember the face of the  woman who want to grab me and I don’t want to go the place that full of dark and most of the time , I don’t wanna be alone.

And then one night , I accidentally nap in the living room . I know to myself that I’m dreaming and when I’m in there, I plan to ask a woman, why she always show up to me while I’m  in the sleeping process,  I experience a tightness of my stomach when I’m asking her and I’m so afraid because, when I did that, I can’t breathe properly and I can’t move my body, the worst is,  I can’t wake up. I feel my body was paralyze . I want to touch my brother who watching a movie but I said while a ago I can’t move my body. I shouted even though it doesn’t work, I’m bless because my brother heard that I’m growling and then I cried again when I got woke up.

I go to the kitchen and get some water, when I’m going to drink the a glass of water, I saw the reflection of cloak figure shadow in my drinking glass. And I drop the glass and I run to my room and pray sincerely. Seriously, I don’t know what’s happening to me and I have no idea, so what are shadow people and where do they come from? and then why there showing up to me and also to my dream. It’s that my illusion or it’s that demons work . I don’t know, what I’m going to do. I feel terrible and hopeless.

This rare routine always happening and sometimes it’s just a normal incident for me. For now , only I can do is to connect again to our God, to build a new strong relationship with him and to let live his spirit again to me. I think only God, help me.

 

Top 10 Reasons Why The Philippines Remains a Third World Country

1. The Philippines was once a Colony of Spain.

2 . The Philippines Lacks in Advanced Infrastructure
3. The Philippines is Developing Economy.
4. The Philippines has Low Quality of Life .
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5. The Philippines suffers from Political instability such as Insurgency.
6. The Philippines has High Rates of Poverty Incidence.
7. The Philippines has Overpopulation
8. The Philippines Suffers from low level of Sanitation.
9. The Philippines generally doesn’t have access to Quality Health Care .
10.The Philippines is still a Low Income Country.
Note : Pictures wasn’t mine , credits to the owner . I salute to the person who captured this wonderful and meaningful photos.

I am your Guardian Angel

It was the 19th day of September of the year 2016

When my black and white story started to be filled with colors

From a simple concern to a stranger

I never knew that it would lead to a deeper connection

I witnessed your pain as well as your happy thoughts

The way you smile never failed to amaze me

When I see you hurting, my heart breaks

Somehow, I feel we have this strong bond inside of us.

No words of gratitude can express

How thankful I am to have you

No adjective can describe

How much you made my everyday better than it was before.

The assurance that you are always happy

Serves as the contentment of my heart

Please do take care of yourself all the time

I can’t bear to see your face not wearing that amazing smile.

17th day of the eleventh month of the same year

Finally, the guardian was able to meet his only angel

Without an angel, the guardian won’t be able to know what he is fighting for

Together, these two are the guardian angels of each other.

Maybe, I will stop writing this poem

But just trust me, this thing that was built up unexpectedly

Expect that this would last a lifetime

With God, we will always stay for each other.

 

 

ASEAN

ASEAN unity is crucial, period. We can’t genuinely progress in political integration if we lack an institutional security architecture and political vehicles to better this security structure.

In the so-called ASEAN roadmap, we have the ASEAN Political-Security Community as the pillar for common political & security challenges in Southeast Asia, particularly the South China Sea disputes. The SCS fiasco’s commenced a de facto arms race among claimant states, and now we’re witnessing 100%+ increase in defense spending of some of them like Vietnam.

As an appendage to the dangerous arms race, the threats to fishermen are also equally concerning. In 2000, one Chinese fisherman was shot dead by the Philippines near Palawan Island, while for the last 3 years we witnessed Chinese naval ships deliberately attacking and sinking Vietnamese fishing vessels in both Paracel and Spratly Islands. Many of the claimants, despite their worries about their fishermen’s safety, encourage continued fishing activities in the most contentious areas of the disputed waters in order to reiterate firmly their sovereignty claims.

The seemingly unceasing onslaught against fishermen -who’re not all guilty of illegal fishing and poaching- is barely jointly tackled by ASEAN+3 summits. Although we have both the Fisheries Consultative Forum and the Strategic Plan of Action Cooperation on Fisheries 2016-2020, ASEAN still has no mechanism concerned about attacks on fishermen in South China Sea, most especially if the attacker’s from an outside state like China. We have to set ASEAN ad hoc committees concerned with all tangible activities in SCS, and the review that they will conduct must be submitted to ASEAN Foreign Ministers’ Meeting for serious discussion.

We need to have a common policy and approach on both the conspicuous militarization of SCS and armed threats against civilian life & fishing industry at large.

Donald Trump

If Trump is true to his words, then he’d eject excessive US interventionism from the Middle East, and recalibrate U.S. effort towards homeward development and priority global regions. He should work hard to maintain good and amicable relations with European partners in the EU and encourage fellow NATO members to spend more on their defense to meet NATO minimum threshold. Furthermore, Trump should, despite of his anti-immigrant rhetoric, maintain and mend ties with Latin American countries. Asia-Pacific should get big allocation of national attention as it is the growth engine of the world, thus Pres. Trump should bolster American cooperation in prospectively opportune states critical to the rebalance strategy such as Vietnam, while strengthening existing good relations with South Korea and Japan.

Somehow I’m really tempted to believe that Donald Trump won’t last in the White House. There’s like a roller coaster spiraling inside my mind and keeps on manufacturing mental images of an “unpresidented” political downfall. Unlike the Philippines, the United States has a firmer democratic base which can definitely irk any presidency. The stringent constitutionalists will also not let their safeguards down, and continue to contain the government in a pressure cooker.

The Obama administration has imposed sweeping ban on offshore drilling in vast swaths of the Arctic and Atlantic Oceans. It’s designed to prevent future attempts to undermine the marine ecology of the two maritime regions, and implicitly a stratagem to stymie President-elect Trump’s energy agenda which includes offshore drilling projects. These executive moves by Pres. Obama will be only up for review after 5 years, it’s highly likely Donald Trump won’t be able to undermine them unless he wants to find himself facing up charges. This should reinvigorate communities to continue to advocate for cleaner energy and safer environment for all. Thanks Obama!

Trump supporters want to increase federal spending. Donald Trump’s “penny plan” is likely to slash federal spending for a decade if lawmakers will have the resolve to keep it for such a term.

The plan is actually more targeted than prior plans as it will exempt military expenditures and mandatory spending such as entitlements, withal it’ll only touch discretionary spending wherein there are already spending caps put in place. It’ll likely cap federal spending as a percentage of the economy at 18%. However, a projected budget surplus will only lead to renewed interest in spending after few years of implementing the plan, therefore deviating away from the stringently fiscal conservative position that many in the House Freedom Caucus espouse for the Trump administration.

Donald Trump needs to adopt a “Modi strategy” over the infamous One China policy. Washington, by reviewing New Delhi’s steps to not upset Beijing, can strengthen its game against Chinese predominance over the strategic ambiguity in East Asia. India’s been welcoming Taiwanese officials for years, and even Tibet figures like the Dalai Lama, and it is using these as a means for China to tone down its assertions in Arunachal Pradesh and Pakistan-India relations. India’s actions have so far not received significant political, security, and economic backlash from Beijing. Modi’s stratagem’s obviously a subtle approach on the nuances of the One China policy which he is using to maximize New Delhi’s strategic advantages. Donald Trump, therefore, needs to sweep things under a strategic rug if he wants to maintain stability in Asia-Pacific.